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Journeys, challenges, & writings of a first-year teacher.
…and with it, a deep sense of reflection, purpose, wistfulness.
In some ways I’ll miss these summer days. Free from the anxiety of evaluation and teaching, I think I bloomed a little this summer, reclaiming parts of myself that had long been forgotten in the tumult of first-year-teaching. it’ll be hard to leave this life. but in other ways, I miss my school and I miss my students and I miss my teacher-friends. Our little family grew even closer this summer. Happy hours and birthday celebrations, planning parties at coffee shops and long group texts about anything and everything. I am blown away by the depths of the friendships I made this past year and buoyed by their non-linear nature; though the specific time and context and circumstance of our friendship may change, we will remain friends forever.
One of our closest friends moved away at the beginning of the summer and…
I’m in the middle of my first Teacher Summer, and it’s nothing like what I thought summer would be. In the vacuum of school – no more planning, grading, texting my kids, etc. – I find myself aimless and restless. I miss my kiddos. I literally dream about them. Is that weird? I’m spending…read more »
I haven’t written in a while. I’ve been too busy living my life rather than writing about it, I suppose, and in some ways, the feelings that the end of the year brings are just too big to be put into words. The past month’s been full of full-hearted moments. Times when life is just…read more »
We got our STAAR results back! Of the 85 students I teach, 6 failed (though they are the hardest-working and more incredible students know), meaning 93% of my kiddos passed. I cried of happiness and relief and freedom when I opened the email in the teacher’s lounge one sunny afternoon last week. And then minutes…read more »
Spring has come and, with it, all the promise of finishing this year out strong. In a strange way, it feels like some things have already come to an end. We had our last district-wide 8th grade English day and, after hours of reflection and planning and best practices for next year, I walked into…read more »
Tomorrow is our first day back to school after Spring Break. There are a host of memorial activities scheduled for this week & this weekend; I headed back to school today to make some copies and was struck by how just being there reminded me of the overwhelming sadness we faced just two weeks ago.…read more »
A few weeks ago, I wrote a post about Impostor Syndrome that received lots of great comments and feedback (yes – I read every comment and really do think about what you all have to say). You asked solid questions and nudged me in just the right ways. Thank you all. I wanted to revisit this…read more »
A student at my school passed away last night. It was unexpected – a tragic accident, horrendous in that other children saw it and tried to save his life – and yet it happened, and the dawn broke, and the sun rose and we all went to school. The day itself was agonizing. My students…read more »
I haven’t written on here in a while. That’s been on purpose. To be honest, I’ve been struggling. Not instruction-wise or evaluation-wise; more on that later. I’ve been struggling with anxiety and self-esteem issues. I’ve been struggling to believe I am actually good at this. And despite the fact that I’m on track to skip…read more »
As I watched one of the US Olympic figure skaters give her post-routine interview, her words struck me. “I used to be scared. But once I let go of that fear, I really fell in love with this sport.” I’m usually not one for over-analyzing already over-analyzed sport metaphors but something about that idea struck…read more »