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Journeys, challenges, & writings of a first-year teacher.
I knew this time would come, and now that it’s here, I just feel a little resigned to the long grind that is burnout.
I’ve been talking about this a lot lately. Emotional labor. Constant stress/anxiety. High stakes all the time. No excuses. Ed reform is notorious for producing “burnout factories” and I feel like my situation is no exception.
I’m trying to pinpoint the exact causes. Here are a few I can come up with:
1. Constant stress and anxiety about surprise evaluations.
2. So. much. feedback. I feel like I am always being watched.
3. The consistent messaging I get that I am never good enough. I understand why this is the case, but still. It’s hard sometimes.
4. Lack of a personal life outside of teaching.
5. Routine & monotony.
6. Little emergencies/”fires” that pop up and encroach upon the semblance of a life I am trying to build for myself.
I’m going home in about…
C.S. Lewis says that to love at all is to be vulnerable, and though I certainly have felt that in areas of my before-I-was-a-teacher life, I never realized how much teaching and vulnerability are inextricably tied. It’s easy to look at this idea and think – breakups. Thanksgiving. Prayer. Religion. Best friends. But when I…read more »
How do you make friends as a teacher? How do you hold onto friends you had before you were a teacher? How, for that matter, do you hold onto the parts of your non-teacher self? I won’t pretend to have all the answers (or even any of the answers, really) but I am someone who…read more »
I did it. I made it to Thanksgiving Break. I will not be back at school for nine days. As I packed up today, after the kids left, I couldn’t help but tear up in my empty classroom. I have grown so much. I have come so far. My world is so different now. I…read more »
Rarely do I post when I’m angry; this is an exception I’m willing to make. I’m sure many of you by now have heard of the deplorable, racist, bigoted “game” hosted by the Young Conservatives group at the University of Texas at Austin on Wednesday. Here’s a brief synopsis from the group themselves: “YCT will…read more »
I am a member of two worlds. The teacher world and the non-teacher world. In teacher world, for the most part, faith in students is taken for granted. I am told, student actions come from teacher actions. Student mindsets come from teacher mindsets. To what extent I truly, deeply believe this is for another post.…read more »
I’ll be honest – I’ve been really struggling, this first week of November. I think I am finally hitting Teacher October but just one month delayed. My kids came off a week of review and a week of testing so it’s been hard for everyone to get back into the swing of actual learning &…read more »
This was said by a student today, as we delved right into the heart of one of this unit’s Essential Questions. What does it mean to grow up? What happens if/when you realize your views are different from those of your parents? Can you grow and stay the same at the same time? To start…read more »
Knee-deep in a full week of testing, I am grateful that my kids finished their English exams today, meaning the pressure has been taken off (for the rest of this week at least). We got our preliminary scores back already. Both my co-planner and I beat the district average for the multiple choice section –…read more »
…and with it, the lure of Thanksgiving and a respite from teacher life burns brighter. I’ve really been feeling October these past few days. not quite sure why. What set me over the edge tonight was an email full of action items and things that need to get done; of course, my progress on these…read more »